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I've come to terms that I'm really bad at keeping this thing updated. I'd much rather read other blogs my friends keep up with, than have to keep up with mine. I'm not even sure anyone even reads this anyways. I guess its just here to ramble.

Lately, I have been really confused at what I want to do with my life. I currently am in the  VCU school of the arts, and I know that I want to do something in that field, but it is just so hard to decide what. The horrible part is that I'm not even guaranteed a spot in my chosen major. Its so competitive. I want to do everything. What's sad is I know what I want to minor (creative advertising) in, but not major. I need to just do some self searching I suppose.

salad.

The best kind of laughter is when your sitting by yourself; you think of a past event, and just start laughing. Not only does it keep you smiling, but it also makes you look like a complete idiot if you're by yourself, which is also laughable. I always find myself laughing at things that are days old, and i think to myself "wow, Laura, way to be a week late."

Most of the things I've been laughing at recently are the stupid things all of my friends say. Mostly from this one video.

salad.

i went to my graphic design class today. i don't like it. 

i forgot how good it feels to draw. pen to paper. thought. Recently I've began to hate drawing because it was always things that didn't interest me. Ive never been comfortable with my drawing skills like my other art skills, but today was the first day that i was. My drawing class is a bit weird. My teacher is pretty old, and loves to reminisce about when he broke his leg, or when he almost went to Vietnam. I like the class, but there is a very specific way he wants things drawn. He's not really open to suggestions, which would usually bother me, but it doesn't. He wants shapes with different value, not smudged shading. I have no problem with that, really, its just that Ive never really drawn like that. Today was my first time, and i really enjoyed it surprisingly.

Obama is officially president.

firsts.

I’ve never used a blog before (minus the popular “live-journal” craze when I was a younnngggin). I always get confused on what to write in them. There are usually two types of entries: the serious, deep, lengthy logs that describe life, music, and every miniscule detail that takes part in someone’s life, but then there are the pointless stupid ranting logs with meaningless information you cant help but laugh at it. I’ve by no means been really good at either, and I just end up looking stupid. I guess this will be my first attempt J I’m going to try and keep up with this as often as possibly, because I know its good to write.

It’s the New Year, and how cliché, my resolution is to quit smoking. I failed the first day. I have no willpower whatsoever it seems like. I’ve been doing better though. I vowed I will never buy a pack again, and I haven’t yet.  I didn’t want to have such a lame resolution, but in all honesty I need to quit. I heard its bad for you ;)

 

I’ve been listening to a lot of Manchester Orchestra lately.

 

“Because if seeing is believing,

Then believe that we have lost our eyes”

 

my favorite line. 

It’s so true, too.